“I need to worship because without it I can forget that I have a Big God beside me and live in fear. I need to worship because without it I can forget his calling and begin to live in a spirit of self-preoccupation. I need to worship because without it I lose a sense of wonder and gratitude and plod through life with blinders on. I need worship because my natural tendency is toward self-reliance and stubborn independence.”

"Jaune, how great is your God?"

mean girls. 

why don't we do anything about them?

we complain, granted. but why do we live in the mindset that there's nothing we can do about them, 

that they're always going to exist. 

i was convicted recently, 

Jesus prays for our Father's kingdom, our Father's will be done, 

on earth as it is in heaven. 

there is so much more than gadgets.
my goodness, there is so much more.
friendship does not depend on technology. if it does, that is not real friendship.

my life in music. 

-If you want me to- Ginny Owens

-Not gonna worry- Gaither Vocal Band

-Busted heart (hold onto me)- For KING & COUNTRY

-Giants in the land- Grover Levy

-This is your life- Newsboys

how insignificant are my problems. 
please Lord, help to see. 
in comparison to YOUR POWER-
its foolish to worry. 
its foolish.
dear God, whats the balance between confidence, and cockiness?
whats the balance between leading someone on- (leading them where)
and being just FRIENDLY. dear Lord, i want to live with no regrets. i don't believe its living my life to the fullest just sitting around analyzing everything. dear God, PLEASE help me to look to the future, because you know the plans you have for me, you declare. plans to prosper me, and not to harm me. plans to give me a future. 

let Him hold your hand. 

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k God. i'll stop running. 

help me to stop analyzing meaningless things. 
MEANINGLESS THINGS>
and live with abandon, 
and love with abandon
-to roll watermelons on the sidewalk, 
to say No, stop it!

quiet. solitude.
i think its so hard to find a healthy balance.
sometimes its all you want. other times its what you dread.
but i think that its vital to recharge. to spend time by yourself with Jesus.
we need to constantly be in tune with the Creater, or else we will be out of tune.
and so i take this time, Lord,

Please Lord, I LAY IT DOWN AT YOUR FEET. it seems you have made me this way, and i trust LORD GOD, that you, creator of the UNIVERSE and everything in it, do not make mistakes. so what's your will in this? Would you help me to seek you first and foremost, and not be terrified of them. because Lord Almighty you've said if i am, you'll give me something to be terrified about- you'll terrify me in front of them. ITS REAL. its something that's dictating my life. please overcome. 
And Lord, i don't think that truly love is something we can force ourselves to do. No, can it flow as natural as a stream out of the overflowing love you have for me. HELP ME TO BELIEVE IT! 
goodness, i don't want to keep living this way. 
YOU ARE THE CHANGE. 
CAN YOU CHANGE ME>
PLEASE> 
in the right motives. …
what're my motives?
please purify my motives!
MY GOODNESS LORD, YOUR GOODNESS IS OVERWHELMING!
you supply. YOUR GRACE IS SUFFICIENT!

if You had made us immune to attraction-

- speak one's mind-

a quiet symphony.
one of heart,
a soft warm billowing sound
one of light,
a rosy yellow glow
one that gives a new perspective
and time
one that is content to
just be
just be


just be

cause i know i'm worn. -tenth avenue north. 

• "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
• Beauty is not democratic; she reveals herself more to the few than to the many…
• The true enjoyments must be spontaneous and compulsive and look to no remoter end.
• We may ignore, but we can nowhere evade, the presence of God.
• "'Safe?' said Mr. Beaver...'Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. but he's good. He's the King, I tell you.'"
• "Every story of conversion is the story of a blessed defeat."
• Sleeping on a dragon's hoard with greedy, dragonish thoughts in his heart, he had become a dragon himself."
• "Prostitutes are in no danger of finding their present life so satisfactory that they cannot turn to God: the proud, the avaricious, the self-righteous, are in that danger."
• If naturalism were true then all thoughts whatever would be wholly the result of irrational causes. It cuts its own throat

and I'm learning not to worry. 




because there is no need. 


and I'm learning how to walk on, 
trusting Him to go before me, 
to go beside me, 
to go surrounding me. 



and its something beautiful. 


'But we must risk-
 because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing'



you be caught, you've got to fall. 

what if everything does happen for a reason? 

theres a couple things going on in my life right now that's really testing my faith in whether or not that's true.

whats the purpose in this? 

how can God be glorified in this?

and then i think about what God has already done,

and how beyond myself He is. 

and i feel small, 

like i'm looking up at the starry night 

remembering that the sun is just another average star.

and that the earth is just one of thousands of planets out there

and that there's 9 billion people on the earth, 

as numerous as the stars in the heavens.

and suddenly, my problems don't seem so 

GINORMOUS 

anymore,

instead they feel small

and i feel safe 

knowing that i'm small

because God is bigger than the heavens

God is beyond my comprehension

and i've decided i can rest in that

 thats one reason i'm a space junkie. 

because it makes me feel small.

and that;s the reason why i love thunderstorms

it's something so beyond my control, 

so beyond myself

SO BEYOND MYSELF. 

 

<starry night- chris august>

ohoh, we need each other. 
Rabbi, you're teaching me. 
please let me to love as You have first loved us. 
YOU HAVE FIRST LOVED US.
you laid down your life for your brothers. 
Jesus, let how i love reflect Your love for us, 
glorify Yourself, Lord God ALMIGHTY. 

i need people in my life to challenge me. 
keep me accountable. 
i'm learning that its such a blessing. 
really, it is SUCH a blessing. 
<psalm 141:5> it is an oil upon my head.
so if there's the odd chance that theres someone out there reading my blog, 
if you feel that God is leading you to say something, 
say it

we need each other. 

                      PROVERBS 18:1,2

Whoever ^(A)isolates himself seeks his own desire;
    he breaks out against all sound judgment.

A fool takes no pleasure in understanding,
    but only ^(B)in expressing his opinion.

soo convicting. 

life at the present

a season of following through. 

what's my motive? motive 1, motive 2

Jesus be my first love

you are not your past, those chains are gone. 

what you do to others, you are also doing to Me. 

made to crave

what's beauty?

break these chains Father,

You're the only one who can

can't, can't wait till camp. 

being surrounded 24 hours a day is really taxing, challenging, intense, powerful. by the end your so exhausted, both physically and mentally. its so worth it. so worth it. 

King Jesus we love you, for we have been loved.